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fredag 3 oktober 2014

Goddess Fate

Now I will present the second website of my red sites. I started this one as I once adopted a webring called The Zodiac. It started out as that but eventually it grew into what it is today and it's been quite a calm place with not much arguments or bad comments about it. Only trouble there was ended when I deleted the webring, as RingSurf totally ruined that for all of us owning rings there. At that time I of course had to deal with members not following the directives and an ever smaller circle of websites. All this creativity of making own websites seems to have seized when Facebook took over peoples lives. Before that people seemed more in control of their own fates, making own very individual pages on the internet, but after these communities took over they are all pretty much the same. It's all about getting likes and appealing to as many as possible. The guestbooks belonging to all personal websites are also disappearing one after another, so there is never any more guest on any of my sites since March last year. If you like to visit my website, please go here - Goddess Fate - and you can click your way through the entrance to seek deeper insights of the zodiac and our universe.

There is an agenda on this planet to faze out our creativity. The possessed people, heavily infected with the psychopathic virus, hence are dead set on first and foremost destroy truly creative, loving people. You might think it is by chance, but it's not. The virus knows who to attack and that is why there is a vast higher probability a creative and loving soul will be randomly a victim to attempts to either destroy them physically or mentally. Or in any other way or form that there is to destroy a person in this world. You might ask why it's so important to destroy true creativity and the answer is cause all that is of pure source energy and will then be able to destroy the controllers power over our minds. That is why they try to control creativity with contests in creativity, which is totally ridiculous as a judge cannot decide who is creating in the right way, as the judge is only another human being. Another way to do it is to have the masses decide what is right, but the masses are never in front of the crowd, but far behind in the middle. So whatever the crowed vote for will be far from creative. The ones they want gone are the odd personalities, the original souls, that create from their inner power, connected directly to source. They want people who mimic enough to be accepted by the masses, and who are charismatic like vampires and energy thieves always are.
People connected to themselves on the higher plane will be following their true path or fate. Doing that they can cause anything to happen, which is highly dangerous to those wishing to control humanity. The controllers are very few, and it seems like most people we know about as the men and women in power have actually totally given away their souls to these true controllers. They are in no way in power, not even of themselves, but act compulsively, destroying the lives even of their own children and grandchildren when poisoning this planet. These people are what I would call mad. They are out of their minds. But to the majority of humanity they are the most hated or respected or feared people. We as a group consciousness fear those who are totally entrapped as souls with absolutely no power what so ever over their own fate. But on the surface they look rich, powerful and successful. It's all a scam, like an advertise, where you are led to believe that this is the goal and what you should wish for yourself. Just like these ads have no solid foundation in reality, these successful people have nothing you, as a free and truly creative soul, would ever want to have in your life. The rush of power and superiority they are allowed to feel, to be granted the riches and fame they are allowed to have, is the only gratification but at the price of feelings so more powerful and enriching they could most likely not imagine, at the level of consciousness these people now are in. They've been conned. Big time.

This kind of mentality is all around you. Even in many of our families, you will have family members who believe they have special powers you don't possess. By making this deal with the devil, as it's often called, they will have traded their heart and empathy for powers of suggestion and mind fuck abilities over others. When they lie and connive to get better presents then their siblings or harass the parents into giving up and allowing them more rights, they feel superior and more in power then what they perceive their low life siblings have. These family members are truly now infected with this virus, as they will bring harm to their loving and caring siblings, just to get the thrill of having the power to do so. They will start fights with their siblings by setting up traps to them and then act out as the innocent victim of their siblings upset when the truth is revealed. The parents, who have been hypnotized by the deceiving children's power of suggestion, will not even try to understand what kind of malice that is going on and without a second thought punish the upset child. It's the same as punishing a child that just have been punched in the face by a sibling, instead of punishing the abuser. It's still abuse.  

In my own family there was first a son, who had not one manipulating bone in his body. He reacted to what happened to him so his nasty younger brother soon noticed how easy it was to confuse him with lies and then get him into a frustrated rage so the parents would conclude the big brother was the problem, while in reality it was the younger one's evil lies and manipulations that caused all the trouble. It always ended with severe punishment and ridicule directed to the older brother, while the younger one put up an innocent face and enjoyed the pain he'd caused his brother. To live with himself he defamed his older brother to everyone, behind his brothers back, while keeping up the illusion of him being the hero of them two, by holding the older brother close to him. It's the push and pull game narcissists play with us to make us come back for more abuse. They hurt us and then they pull us back with kindness and friendship and make us forget the terrible pain they've caused us. They destroy what we care for the most, and then act like we are over reacting when we get upset. They belittle everything that is important to us and make us feel ashamed for everything that matters to us. By doing all these things they brake our soul and make us forget our true path and fate. That is the true intention behind all of this abuse, as such people work with the virus and are not of the source or have any clue whatsoever what real love is about. This second brother of mine actually once proclaimed there was more then enough love in this world, and it was not lack of love that was the problem. It's cause people like him don't know what love is - at all.

Being the younger sister to these two boys I was the observer who saw what was happening. As I did know I was also targeted and physically punished on mothers orders. She's definitely infected by the virus and the first time I realized that was very early in my life. I saw her in a dream as a person with two souls, one human soul and one evil demonic soul. It was very disturbing as I was very young, needing a mother to trust, and I could never know who of these two she was every day. It gave me deep anxiety that I've had to live with my whole life. A feeling that I can never trust anyone, as I could not even trust my mother. Unfortunately this is an infection that are inherited into a family, mostly due to some mental illness and unfair abuse going on, and every generation are affected in some way or another. It's the abused children that will have most trouble not passing this particular virus along, but also the children given special treatment, while looking on when their siblings are abused will pass this along. Just like our mother believed she was a better child then her two abused siblings, our brother believed he's better then his. Atleast I and the oldest brother know some of what is ill in our family, while he has not a clue. He relish in the idea that he's more entitled and special then us two others. Cause mother told him so.

The interesting fact in this is that the first brother was highly interested in extraterestials, sci fi and many other fascinating subjects. None of these interests were shared by the second brother, who was deeply committed to this earth and the material aspect of it. He was always openly an atheist, and ridiculed every thought about spirituality. In spite of that he was mothers favorite, though she was acting like a devoted christian. Using this religion our parents made particulary the oldest brother feel very guilty for his reactions to the manipulation and teasing by his brother and also the abuse by his parents, as they totally used the "turn your other cheek" idea on him. I don't remember that I ever thought much about that concept, but I'm sure it got ingrained in me too the idea that I was not allowed to be mad at them due to their non regretted actions. Coming back to the oldest brothers interests I was the only one in the family sharing them. To me it was obvious that this brother came from another place, where people did not behave so phony and manipulating as our brother did and where other laws of nature were at hand. I just knew this from early childhood and never felt angry due to him doing stupid things, as he kept changing his behavior when he seemed to understand the effects of them.

One thing he never seemed to notice was that he harmed me on several occasions when he was raging after he's been abused by the teasers in our family. Even though his actions truly hurt me physically I somehow understood his pain and I truly knew, only when a very small child myself, that it was the actions by others causing this to happen to me. I never remember that he got told or punished for lashing out on me in this violent way, like it was ok to harm me. That I'm sure was cause him harming me also, when himself in pain, was an extra bonus to the evil virus wanting to harm both of us. As he never got punished when he harmed me he has now no recollection of his actions. He truly does not remember any of these assaults like they never happened. He can hear me talk about them, but not remember them. To me that is very hurtful, as he tells me that I was so insignificant to him that hurting me is of lesser importance then hurting for instance a cat. He even has told me that, as he remembers when he hurt a cat and that has haunted his consciousness ever since, so to him that was a bigger crime then harming me, as he cannot remember my harm.  

In his mind he's a very nice person and in most instances he is a very nice person. But when he cannot remember harming some people, and actually thinking abusing them is not as bad as hurting other beings, he's in many ways very like our parents. Both our parents have refused to feel any guilt for their behavior of punishing two of their children for things done by two other of their children. Not once have they admitted to doing this, like it's never happened. Also mother has on several occasions changed the true course of reality to remake it into something more beneficial for her self image. This remaking of reality to better suite what you prefer is typical for people damaged by dysfunctional families, where any form of diversion from some kind of acceptable norm is severely punished. So the fact that mother always been so good at this art led me to believe she was damaged as a young and sensitive child, and therefore she was behaving so cruel and devious. But then I more and more feel like she enjoys the pain she has caused her victims, and that she enjoys when she lure them back into her circle of influence. Her favorite idea is that blood is thicker then water, so you are obliged to forgive and forget, whatever she's done or said, without her ever needing to regret anything or ask for forgiveness.

All of that is pathological thinking, most likely cause her family of origin never acknowledge suffering they afflicted on the harmed children in their family. The one most harmed in that family was also my favorite, in spite me knowing she was very unstable emotionally. For good reasons too, if you ask me. What mother has told me about the abuse this poor sister had to go through, no child should have to endure. It was not her fault her father had mental issues due to post traumatic stress, reawaken by the second world war. The poor girl had not caused any of the precious wars, nore did she cause that war. But as the father was denied his right to support his family and helplessly had to watch country after country get devastated, fearing his family would soon be in peril, she got caught in this frustration. Pretty much as I got caught in my oldest brothers frustration. And I can imagine that my mothers father felt like a really good person, wishing peace to the world and helping out to achieve this, and I'm sure he never really could internalize the harm he did to this daughter with all the lashing out on her. She was a child and eleven years old when her mother had to move her to her grandmothers home to keep her safe from her own father.

Guess what? Yes, this girl was very creative, loving and caring. She had always loads of creative projects going, raised a huge family and never focused on becoming a snobby successful bitch, but on her children and all their pets. Her whole life was a salutation to life and beauty, but she was considered the mad one in their family, which I feel is so unfair and hateful it makes me very angry. How can they even say those things when they know how badly their father treated her? They make it out as it was the girls fault, that she was too argumentative, too like their father, or any other reason but the truth, that their father let his PTSD affect his daughters life and take away her family from her. She was the one punished for her fathers mental disorder and then everyone considered her the problem as she'd been punished unfairly. Ever since then she must have felt like a reject, an unwanted child that has been discarded like a piece of junk. This is what cause people to feel self loathing mixed in with rage over the realization our soul does have that it's not fair we feel this way. All this together I'm sure is a breeding ground to created Borderline qualities in a child, and to outsiders a person suffering from this hell is the mad one. I'd say that such a person is stuck between the hell of self hate and "mad as hell and I wont take this anymore". That cause what truly happened and cause their harm was never truly acknowledge, and no regrets and asking for forgiveness was ever made.

The reason I know all this about my dear aunt is cause mother did love her alot, and has told me about her and how terrible she was treated. At the same time my mother, looking on this terrible abuse, learned that she herself was a better person as she was never abused in this way. Somehow she was taught that the first born was to ridicule and harm as much as possible, and she went on to do the very same thing when she became a mother. As she was the second born, and dodged the abuse by acting sweet and innocent all the time, she projected for ever innocence and sweetness unto her second child. It all adds up. Then she got a horrible baby brother who stole her mother away from her, when she was just a toddler. Not that she remembers this event, but her mother apparently has told her that she got really upset at this time. The maid smacked mother in her face, grandma had told her, due to her crying and ever since then mother has not shed a tear. Weird. But the important thing is that the baby brother was also considered a problem child, as his parents decided his future and he would not follow their program. He deflected and got another future then they'd wanted for him. So according to mother he was also in trouble alot, and I don't really remember if he also got a good beating now and then or not. But he was the trouble maker, just like I've been projected to me, in spite of me being the most shy and introvert child ever. But I did tell them the truth, when I saw it.

I was the one understanding the second brothers mind games, and his teasing of his siblings to get reactions he could use as weapons on us to make our parents view us two as bad and him as the saintly one. He did that by calmly claiming things that was not true, and watching us get emotional and upset over his blatant lies. The parents then always choose to believe his lies and consider us who were upset as the problem children. Very cleaver, evil and devious. In a short while he acted like the ruler of us three and used us as his side kicks whenever he needed assistance in some of his very boring and material oriented projects. He didn't have any artistic talents what so ever, but was in spite of that projecting alot of these qualities to the outside. He could not paint and had no musical talents what so ever, but he knew mother loved such things and pretended he did. The older brother never made such pretend and were therefore ridiculed as he was very devoted to his own interests. He loved to find out how things really worked, like he wanted to understand this place he'd landed on. Like I said before I had early an eerily feeling he was not of this earth, but had a spirit that had lived on a totally other kind of place then this.

Not long ago this brother told me of a dream he had long ago that totally confirmed my childhood feeling. He had dreamed about how he entered into this realm and what he told me was just like I'd imagined it as a child, that he'd come from a place with less friction, where a unity consciousness was manifested that gave you more solidness to your life, with less conflicting input. This place is very confusing for such a soul and you are bound to make horrible mistakes, without the guidance of such an all compassing consciousness. More then once he's been told that he's an extraterrestial, not of this earth, by people wanting to ridicule him. Which of course wont work as that is exactly what that dream told him he is. Once he tried to get hypnotized to look for previous lives, but the result was only that he was not allowed to see this. Knowing what I've always felt was true my thought about that is you are not allowed to as it would greatly harm your ability to function in this land of confusion, if you access your last home world and it was so splendid and calm you can never truly connect to this awful place after you've been mentally home. Even for the briefest moment I think it might be very dangerous for our missions here, if we are allowed to see and feel such things.

When I was long time lethally ill, without being diagnosed yet, I had a weird dream too, where I was allowed to come home for a short while. What I saw was very much how you'd picture the Olympus where the Greek Gods resides, but it felt like it was only a picture that I myself had chosen as it is beautiful in my eyes, with white pillars and their gardens. I was met by my family, a couple that didn't look older then me but obviously were my true father and mother. They were beautiful and the woman had long blond hair and she wore a white long dress. Also the man figure had white cloths and was very handsome. Then there was another man there who was younger. He looked like a typical Greek man, the more beautiful kind, with curly dark hair and brown eyes. I felt like I was not myself and was ashamed as I looked so ugly now. My true self would had been more like my blond and beautiful mother who was there. But the younger man calmed me that it was only temporary and that it didn't matter to him. He was half laying on a bed sofa, like you'd imagine they'd have in those ancient places. I came over to him and he wanted me to get really close so I lay down beside him and at that moment I was filled with so much energy it totally drowned me. Then I woke up and the awful tiredness I'd felt for so long was all gone. I had also some slight memory that this was not something that would be granted to me again, but something necessary right then.

Now knowing I've been lethally ill for very long I get this message. What I'd felt was pure source energy and without it I'd most likely would had received cancer or other dangerous side effects of the lethal condition I was in. After a few years the illness was detected as I finally got around to go to another doctor, hoping he'd believe me, which he didn't and he also sent me home with some stupid advice, like I was imagining I was ill. Luckily this health center did take some blood and thanks to that found out I indeed was lethally ill, in spite of all doctors believes that I cannot be ill as I look so healthy, according to them. I'm still very angry at this doctor as he would not listen to a word I told him and ignored my very high blood pressure, by comparing me with others instead of with myself. Normally I have a blood pressure at the lowest edge of the normal scale, but now it was at the top level, and such a huge change is not normal at all. But he would not listen. He also could not see anything wrong on my EKG, even if my heart was beating so hard it sounded like huge BOOMS in my head. He ignored that as just a little bit hard, but not understanding why the heart would do such a weird thing. He neither understood that this sound prevented any sleep to occure, and a person needs to sleep. He just could not see how odd it all was, and that was so stupid. A heart doing this is working too hard, and that is a big sign something is very wrong.

All of this comes back to the agenda of ignoring and killing off the truly creative and loving people on this planet, if you ask me. Those clever enough will try and try again to get heard and will find healers that will help them back to life. Those trusting the mainstream health care will perish at worst case, as they are ignored for years in their pain and agony. All surely a plan by the virus, as the complainers and petty self important patients get alot of attention, while only suffering from minor health problems, like a sensitivity to certain food products, like milk. I've seen this myself how a person with such minor problem are totally helped and considered very important to assist. Like her problems are of higher importance then a person like me. It's so very unfair as my condition was lethal and was slowly killing my body, and not even at the end would I be believed. Had they not tested my blood I'd soon after would had died, for sure, and been totally out of help. Still I meet this nonsense from the person I think about, who have this oversensitivity to milk products. I know many who have that, but none so self important as her. She acts like her problem is lethal and horrible, her B-vitamins intake need and all surrounding this and anything concerning her and her family so very special and very grave.

All the while she ridicules truly horrible things happening to others, and minimizing and belittling them. The person I think about is our baby sister, of course, who immediately always either make up a story that makes her the worst afflicted or she laughs off others suffering. She is in no way a better person then our horrible brother, I must say, as she is so clever at making us all feel sorry for her, when she is making it out she has all our problems, but worse. Even after I was recovering from my lethal illness she made me feel sorry for her as now she was sure she had heart problems. She admitted to knowing that I was diagnosed long ago with a most likely born with heart condition, and after I'd told her this heart doctor had warned me of over straining my heart and my worry that the lethal illness might have done alot of that, of course, she immediately put all the focus on her and her heart. Of course I was very kind to her, as I always am, but the thing is - she took away the focus on me, who actually have this problem, and put it on herself. She makes people do that also all the time, like the lawyer settling the estate after father. She makes people think her made up fictional ideas are more real, then actual events and provable facts are. He believes now she is more entitled to the estate then I am, just cause she says so. That's the hypnosis.

Back in 2008 I remember talking to this sister about my bad health problems and her reply gave me so much guilt over how self centered I was, as her health was so much worse then mine. According to her. Now I know that I was lethally ill already at that time and what I'd complained about was caused by my body's inflammatory state. According to her she had worse problem with this then I did, and she'd had it since she was 12. So me just feeling this getting really bad these last two years I felt very stupid, so I didn't want to focus on my problem anymore, in spite of me having severe problems and loads of pains that made life very difficult. I didn't know how to be able to handle a job with such issues and I rarely slept without horrible pains from the area of infection. So this went on for many years getting worse and worse every year until my body gave up and I had to go to the doctor. And he didn't either believe me! But thanks to the blood result everyone got proof I was indeed severely ill, and I was not making anything up. As a matter of fact the question now was how I could had lived in such poorly condition for so long. Isn't that a joke? In my opinion all this happened for me to see what people truly are made of, as this was part of my fate here on earth. Now I can separate me from these selfish people, who love to cause me pain and suffering. The two I know love this for sure is this sister, and the second brother. Also my mother has a very evil strike that doesn't appeal to me what so ever. In my opinion she's a very toxic person that need to cleanse herself before I'd like to have anything more to do with her. Of these three I'd say she is the one most likely to one day be able to do this, but as things look right now I think she'll do that in her next life cycle.

I've made all of these graphics from tutorials using the images suggested by the tutorial maker. The ones I've chosen for this site are of course mostly such that might in some way suite a zodiac sign. Being a Gemini myself I'm mostly attracted to that sign. As you might notice there are lots of signs I have not yet made a gift to. On the site there is however already as gift for Taurus people, that I did not include here. Of some reason I seem to also find many nice graphics to do for Virgo, but that is natural as all one needs is a Madonna figure or a beautiful, kind looking lady with either a child or with wheat in her hands. When you go to the site you have to enter to Zeus Zodiac to actually learn anything about our star signs or some other issues concerning cosmos. It's mostly for entertainment so don't expect rocket science. I also devote this site to our friends out there, somewhere on other planets and solar systems. I have a hard time to digest the notion that our little pearl in space are the middle of everything, that so many humans still feel attached to. Like all the stars are only illusions and other weird notions. I feel much happier to be sure there are other places out there, with more love and care for each other, as the psychopathic virus has not infected the race, as it's done here. Places that have transcended this infection and conquered it, as I'm sure that's the only way to rid yourself from it. To get immune.

IngRuna - Love Circle

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